back from the borderline
Kanaal Besonderhede
back from the borderline
I don’t want to talk to your personality; I want to talk to your soul. Imagine if your most painful and debilitating mental health symptoms and self-sabotaging behaviors aren’t evidence of 'disorder' or 'dysfunction', but adaptive strategies that once kept you safe. My goal is to help you shift from...
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the IFS takedown: my unfiltered response to the psych industry’s victory lap
When New York Magazine dropped its viral feature “The Therapy That Can Break You,” in The Cut on October 30th, 2025, the internet exploded with hot ta...
the world isn't real (and why that might actually be a good thing)
For thousands of years, philosophers, mystics, and scientists have whispered the same unsettling possibility: what if reality itself is a mirage? From...
dark enlightenment: the forbidden philosophy behind the tech elite
It’s a strange and somewhat terrifying timeline we’re living through. Peter Thiel has begun giving lectures about the Antichrist, while Sam Altman is...
when stillness feels dangerous (hypervigilance as a religion)
We live in bodies that don’t know how to rest. Even when the room is quiet, our nerves stay braced for impact. Always ready to defend, explain, and pe...
enchantment in the age of disenchantment w/ dr. teddy hamstra
Modern life teaches us to doubt what we can’t measure. Yet, across history, people have witnessed things that refuse to fit the frame - mystical encou...
trauma fossils: when survival becomes a ghost in the soul
It’s possible that some part of you still wakes each day prepared for impact. You snap in anger before you even understand why. A small comment feels...
the hidden AI system monitoring your emotional state
You're talking to ChatGPT like you always do. Maybe asking it to help you work through something personal or just having a casual conversation with a...
the alchemy of sleep and how your roots decide what you dream
Most people chase their dreams by focusing purely on the mind. They track every symbol and obsess over dream dictionary interpretations. The deeper st...
aleister crowley: the man, the myth, the shadow
Aleister Crowley is one of the most mythologized figures in modern history. He’s been called a prophet, a fraud, a genius, a junkie, a saint, and a mo...
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ufo disclosure bombshell [part 2]: why masculine thinking is killing disclosure
We’ve been going in circles on this stuff for a long time now. Despite decades of witness testimony, leaked documents, and official acknowledgments, U...
why i hope we're living in a simulation
You've heard the simulation hypothesis before. That cold, depressing idea that we're probably just code running on some alien computer, meaningless NP...
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the ufo disclosure bombshell [part 1]: human trafficking in black programs exposed
Alleged leaked text messages between a Senate Intelligence Committee staffer and a military whistleblower have been circulating through UFO research c...
occult statecraft: how demons, magicians, and intelligence agencies shaped the modern world
WARNING: This episode will permanently alter how you view government institutions, scientific establishments, and the people who actually run this cou...
everything we now call "drugs" used to be how humans touched god
Your ancestors knew something about consciousness that we've systematically forgotten, and there are powerful reasons why this knowledge was buried.
anomalies, intuition, and the edge of what we know with jeffrey mishlove, PhD
He’s the only person to ever receive a doctoral degree in parapsychology from an accredited university (UC Berkeley, 1980). He hosted the original Thi...
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the forgotten codes of love i'll teach my daughter [part 2]
While Part 1 revealed the exoteric truths of relationship patterns, Part 2 unlocks the esoteric mysteries that have been hidden in plain sight for cen...
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the forgotten codes of love i'll teach my daughter [part 1]
You've been dating the same person in different bodies your entire life. It's time to stop settling for scraps of affection and start demanding the de...
your pain is real but your suffering is a story
Your shoulders and jaw have been tight for months. Shit, maybe for your entire life. You wake up already thinking about the thing that might go wrong...
why medieval witches and modern alien experiencers are describing the same thing
Everything you believe about witch trials, UFO encounters, and alien abduction experiences might be fundamentally wrong. These seemingly unrelated phe...
when magick went underground
You possessed knowledge as a child that you were systematically taught to abandon. You perceived realities that adults insisted did not exist. Every c...
religious trauma and the silent toll on female emotional development (a roundtable with stephanie ann and alyssa grenfell)
This episode brings together two former members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (Stephanie Ann and Alyssa Grenfell) for a direct co...
the 1000-year-old tibetan secret that makes western psychology look like child's play
Discover the ancient Tibetan practice of Chöd that's revolutionizing how we approach inner work, trauma healing, and shadow integration. While Western...
selective spiritual technophobia: why mystics and scientists are both getting AI wrong
Why are so many spiritual teachers and thinkers panicking about AI? Some are calling it demonic, while others say it’s the Antichrist, but almost no o...
why shadow work is making you worse
You've been doing everything right. Journaling about your triggers. Embracing your darkness. Loving your inner demons. Yet somehow your anxiety is wor...
meme magic, hot mess eras, and digital disappearance with aiden arata
If you’ve spent any time on Instagram’s weird, wonderful and niche corners, chances are high that you’ve seen one of Aiden Arata’s memes. Her work mov...
the death of the people-pleaser: how self-abandonment becomes a survival strategy
This episode is a deep dive into the psychological, spiritual, and mythic roots of people-pleasing and why this pattern exists in the first place. We...
TDC_21: the secret sauce to awakening? paradox.
There are some episodes that meet you where you are. This is not one of those.
This episode is for those standing at the threshold where healin...
cutting the cord, keeping the thread: how to stop repeating your parents’ coping mechanisms in adult life
Family dynamics shape us long after we’ve left home, but not always in ways we can see.
This episode examines what happens when we internalize...
why age gap relationships aren’t normal: grooming, power, and emotional maturity
Age-gap relationships have been romanticized, normalized, and quietly accepted across pop culture, media, and even personal memory. But at what cost? ...
the emotional cost of always being available (why you’re drowning in unread messages)
In a world where the day begins with blinking notifications and ends with unanswered messages, many of us are carrying an invisible weight. This episo...
you can’t domesticate venus: sex, power, and the archetypes running your life with dr. laurence hillman
Psychological astrologer Dr. Laurence Hillman returns to the podcast for a rare, unfiltered conversation on desire, danger, and the archetypal forces...
your whole childhood wasn’t bad: the danger of “all-trauma” narratives
Many of us find healing through learning about trauma - especially childhood emotional neglect, dysfunctional family systems, and the lasting impact o...
disordered desire: performing connection, numbing pleasure, forgetting yourself
Desire is meant to be a creative force. Something within us that fuels connection, expression, intimacy, and imagination. But for many of us, that for...
what they're hiding about your mind
In this episode, we explore the deeper truths that may be hiding beneath the surface of today’s “Disclosure” discourse. While headlines focus on UFO s...
why psychiatry failed her: laura delano on misdiagnosis, medication, and coming back to life
What is the cost of being a “good patient”? For Laura, it was nearly her life.
Join me as I sit down with Laura Delano, author of the groundbrea...
the real reason you’re afraid of the devil (you’re possessed, and it looks nothing like the movies)
This episode plunges into the most feared symbols in the Western imagination: Lilith, Lucifer, the Devil, the Serpent, and the Dragon, and asks what w...
the psychology of love island USA S7: why it broke the internet (and what it says about us)
This is an in-depth psychological breakdown of Love Island USA Season 7, one of the most viral and culturally polarizing seasons in the franchise’s hi...
you’re NOT crazy, you’re remembering the real world.
We’ve all had moments that totally flipped our idea of reality on its head. Maybe it was an image from a dream that stayed with you for weeks, a phras...
why personality ISN'T a prison (unless you let it be)
If you were to believe the dominant frameworks of modern psychology, psychiatry, and popular self-help, you might assume that personality is a fixed s...
what you're calling a breakdown might be a dark baptism
Some people call it a breakdown. Others call it trauma. But when you look closely, these moments often follow a pattern. These moments come at a thres...